Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


Thank y'all so much for supporting me on my journey! Many of you ask me how I stay motivated. This season you are about 2 watch me go through the hardest time since my journey started! You will see I am battling the beast still and I struggle just like y'all! You will watch me go down hill so fast and I'am oblivious 2 what is happening 2 me! This season was the hardest for me! You will watch me start out in a storm that turns into a tornado 2 a hurricane 2 an earthquake that shakes me so hard that I believe I will never get back up! The question I leave y'all with is....DO I GET BACK UP? CAN WE ALL GET BACK UP AFTER FALLING SO HARD?
All of your emails and post that ask me: "Ruby how do you stay motivated?" or "Ruby I can't do this?" or "Ruby I can't beat this, I am trying, but I can't beat this!" or "Ruby, how can I get help, where do I find help, how can I help myself?"......etc... the list goes on and you are about to find out that I am walking with all of you as you are with me! All the answers to your questions will be answered for y'all in my shame, in my failing, in my blindness to people and myself. In this shame, failure, blindness I SAW ME!! It may sound strange to a lot of people, but sometimes it takes sinking to truly find our truth!!! I am sorry if during my failure I let y'all down! Trust me I let myself down worse!!! God as my witness, your questions will be answered through this season!
I love you!! xoxo, Ruby

Thursday, November 25, 2010

The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you.


Thank you so much for your unconditional love.
I thank God for You!

When I'm hacky or down and feel I can't go on knowing ya'll are there rooting me on
gets me through.

Sometimes MY beast/battle overwhelms me,
but your notes, emails, support, stories, belief, faith
gives me the strength to keep fighting!

When I see your faces.
I thank God for You!
Because you mean the world to me,
And we share a special bond.
We know exactly what each other is going through and even though we will never walk in each others shoes.
My shoes fit you perfectly and I fit in yours perfectly!

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE love YOUR FAMIE AND FINS with your words and actions daily! Remember no one is perfect! None of us are without fault!
Be careful judging others. Do not assume you know facts about someone else because God only knows the heart of a man/woman!

Remember to be thankful you have a roof above your head, a place to call home. It doesn't matter what everyone else has that may seem better then ours! It matters what people may not have, the ones who do not have a home, or food, or warmth, or family or friends. Reach out your hands and be someone's friend and family today.

If you feel alone today! You are not alone! Break the cycle today and make that phone call, email or walk into a place and find a friend. There are places all over with people waiting to love and help you.
It is up to you to make the first step and I am begging you too.
Fight your familiarity it's a false security and start your life today.

your letters, cards, emails, post, prayers! Thank you for rooting me on during my victory and in my failures! Thank you for still believing in me when I am falling, falling, falling!
Your belief in me helps me find my belief in myself again and gets me back
on my road that will lead me to my destiny!




Thursday, October 28, 2010

THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT: I want to speak to y'all about a very serious matter....

Hi My Friends,
I want to speak to y'all about a very serious matter....

Please make sure 2 click here:

Please tell everyone you know about this through Blogging, Facebook, MySpace, Twitter
and feel free 2 share this article because its truly my hearts passion! Please speak out and fight back with me. In this interview I said so much more, but they had to edit it for the news :O)
The Today show and Kristen thank you so much for caring and your passion!

Obesity is an addiction!!! I fight with this every single day of my life.
I wish it was as simple as dieting/eating healthy & exercising! IT IS NOT!

When OPRAH asked me the question

We have to find out what we are really feeding emotionally, mentally, spiritually through the food, drugs and alcohol etc...

What is your drug of choice?
For the morbidly obese and the anorexic its food!
For the drug addict it is drugs!
For the alcoholic it is alcohol!
For the smoker it is tobacco!
The addiction list goes on!

Now lets look at the similarities?
They all are feeding something into our bodies.
They all feel good at the moment and give temporary pleasure.
They all help us NOT to exist for a period of time.
They can all be genetic.
They take CONTROl over every part of us destroying present and future relationships, families, and cause financial problems, etc..
They destroy us and kill our spirits and then eventually kills us.
They usually begin from something traumatic happening to us in life.

The list goes on, but my point is that these are definitely the same and we are all fighting to beat our addiction.

The drug for the food addict is the easiest to access. Our drug of choice is always within our reach!

We are in the fight for our life! We will not crumble and die. We will continue to fight this and win daily! Please do not worry about tomorrow take this beast face to face one day at a time.

For the ones that read Marie Claire article or any articles like this....
when I was interviewed I was asked how I felt when I read it and I responded:

My heart was broken and I felt like someone had put a knife through my heart, because this completely goes against the message I am trying to send out that this is an addiction. I fight this every single days and some days every single second!!!

I tell everyone do not let your shell define who you are and to get out of your house and live your life. Words written or spoken like these cut like a knife and cause people 2 run and hide, makes people feel more of an outcast and like they are not accepted in a world they are supposed to be living in. So what happens is...they become shut ins and allow their beast to become bigger.

It has become an epidemic in the US and other countries and children now are suffering from this 2. Think about it, what is the first thing a child can get their hands on 2 medicate themselves with "FOOD"!

When you hear or read things like this it only gives fuel for bullies and people to be meaner/hateful to people who they feel do not fit into society. This only creates hate and haven't we seen enough repercussions from hate of religions, races, relationships, etc...

I am begging everyone who has a voice to stop tearing people down and giving others ammunition 2 destroy and hurt someone else's life.
Please, please use your voice for the good, love, understanding, forgiveness, etc...

We are a hurting world!
Clinics, broken homes, media, the suicide rates w/ adults & children,
the economy is bad, but look how much money we put out for our substance of choice etc...

By changing one person's life you change a family, relationship, friends and before you know it a state eventually a country.
Love and actions of love can truly change someone's life and yours!!

We would soon be faced with a healing world!

(We can make a large horse go wherever we want by means of a small bit in its mouth. And a small rudder makes a huge ship turn wherever the pilot chooses to go, even though the winds are strong. In the same way, the tongue is a small thing that makes grand speeches.

But a tiny spark can set a great forest on fire. And the tongue is a flame of fire. It is a whole world of wickedness, corrupting your entire body. It can set your whole life on fire, for it is set on fire by hell itself.) from: the WORD OF GOD!!!

“And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if there weren't any other people living in the world.

“Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart.”

Anne Frank, Writer of Anne Frank’s Diary


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My sweet Tenni McCarty

Please click hear & let Paula White & her team pray for you. I love her!!!

Make sure to watch Oct 31st 9-10pm Halloween


You seek too much information and not enough transformation.
Never long for anyone from the past. There is a reason why they never made it to your future.


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

*You seek too much information and not enough transformation.*

Pls make sure 2 watch 8:20am ET/PT the Today show which airs on NBC 2day! I talked abt making a stand & how words can kill & they R worse then weapons. That words can make some 1 crumble & die/commit suicide! Discussing the article in Marie Claire pls make a stand w/me!
Pls pray pple hear & do!!

*You seek too much information and not enough transformation.*
*Whether you think you can or think you can't - you are right.*
Never long for anyone from the past. There is a reason why they never made it to your future.